{"id":3350,"date":"2011-11-14T12:08:01","date_gmt":"2011-11-14T17:08:01","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/cloggie.org\/wissewords2\/2011\/11\/14\/back-to-work\/"},"modified":"2011-11-14T12:11:57","modified_gmt":"2011-11-14T17:11:57","slug":"back-to-work","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/cloggie.org\/wissewords2\/2011\/11\/14\/back-to-work\/","title":{"rendered":"Back to work"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><center><br \/>\n<object width=\"480\" height=\"360\"><param name=\"movie\" value=\"http:\/\/www.youtube-nocookie.com\/v\/EN96cKEYkHw?version=3&amp;hl=en_US\"><\/param><param name=\"allowFullScreen\" value=\"true\"><\/param><param name=\"allowscriptaccess\" value=\"always\"><\/param><embed src=\"http:\/\/www.youtube-nocookie.com\/v\/EN96cKEYkHw?version=3&amp;hl=en_US\" type=\"application\/x-shockwave-flash\" width=\"480\" height=\"360\" allowscriptaccess=\"always\" allowfullscreen=\"true\"><\/embed><\/object><br \/>\n<\/center><\/p>\n<p>\nBoth the place I&#8217;m currently working at as the one that actually pays the bills were very understanding about the situation with Sandra and I could&#8217;ve taken more time off than I did, but I wasn&#8217;t looking forward to staring at the walls in my flat for another week. Last week I survived mainly on adrenaline and with the support of my family and friends (the sympathy I&#8217;ve gotten in comments, mails and <a href=\"http:\/\/blog.zog.org\/2011\/11\/damned.html\">posts like Michel&#8217;s<\/a> was very welcome) and Saturday I collapsed. Nothing drastic, just that I woke up at my usual time, just in time to listen to <cite>Saturday Live<\/cite> and <em>I didn&#8217;t know what to do with myself<\/em>. Nothing I could read interested me, internet did not appeal and even the last refuge of the desperate, daytime television was no comfort. It was only a momentary glitch, but it confirmed what I already suspected. No matter how others grief, I needed routine, distraction and a chance to not think about it all&#8230;\n<\/p>\n<p>\nBecause there&#8217;s a heck of a lot of free time now to fill up. In the past two years life revolved around hospital visits and\/or taking care of Sandra when she was home, with everything else pushed to the margins. That overwhelming focus is no longer needed now and all my usual distractions aren&#8217;t quite enough to fill that void. Work helps, to a certain extent. But I still need something more, something bigger than me to believe in &#8212; nothing scary and religious, but some sort of cause to work for or hobby to get deeply involved in, something that does more than just entertain me for a couple of hours. I need to get more political again.\n<\/p>\n<p>\nFirst order of business: Resurrect <a href=\"\/proggold\/\">Prog Gold<\/a>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Both the place I&#8217;m currently working at as the one that actually pays the bills were very understanding about the situation with Sandra and I could&#8217;ve taken more time off than I did, but I wasn&#8217;t looking forward to staring at the walls in my flat for another week. Last week I survived mainly on [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[27],"tags":[2492],"class_list":["post-3350","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-posts-interesting-only-to-me","tag-sandra"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/cloggie.org\/wissewords2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3350","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/cloggie.org\/wissewords2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/cloggie.org\/wissewords2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cloggie.org\/wissewords2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cloggie.org\/wissewords2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3350"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/cloggie.org\/wissewords2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3350\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3351,"href":"https:\/\/cloggie.org\/wissewords2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3350\/revisions\/3351"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/cloggie.org\/wissewords2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3350"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cloggie.org\/wissewords2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3350"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cloggie.org\/wissewords2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3350"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}