So here we are at the very last day of a year that turned out to be quite a disaster, if only for me personally. This time last year Sandra was still in hospital but looking forward to going home early in the new year and indeed would be, celebrating Easter at home. She was weak, but finally on the road to recovery, or so I thought. That of course turned out not be the case. She had to go back into hospital a number of times and the last time she had to, she had had enough and decided to stop it all. Her struggle ended on the 7th of November and I’m only slowly coming to grip with it. The simple fact of her death colours everything I do.
Next year will be the first year without her since we met and fell in love back in 2000. With a bit of luck I’ll be able to live another sixy years or so before I die, but they will still be without her and sometimes I worry that i’ll forget her.
And I don’t want to forget her.
UPDATE: it’s 2012 now in Holland. Happy New Year and let’s hope it is a good year for everybody.
Menno/Vic
January 2, 2012 at 5:32 amI often find myself thinking about her – wondering what she would say – some pithy comment, some story of hers that would put my thought in perspective.
You will never forget her,but gradually, she will take up less of your mental space, so that you are able to function without feeling that you are missing a vital piece of your own anatomy. That could take months, or years, but will not take forever. And is part of the healing process. Don’t feel guilty if you momentarily forget her – she is still there. (V)
We’re out in Cambs at the moment, (P&J say hi) but will be back this evening as Working Life is about to recommence. Call as and when necessary.(M)
Looking forward to seeing you in August – but very happy to see you before then, if you fancy a trip over to the UK.
Alex
January 22, 2012 at 9:54 pmYou’ll always have happy memories. But you should write them down, as some of the less strong memories will fade.
Happy New Year.